Embarrassing stuff, this speech impediment of mine can be
Emphasis on certain letters, stuttered when I’m nervous
But it’s not just simply limited to one easy ‘s’
It’s a stigmatised harshness to all my soft letters
Adding an unnecessary aggressive nature to my speech
A reason not to be taken seriously at all times
Or an excuse as I would say if it wasn’t such a struggle
I try to shout to be heard but all that you hear is letters.
My shame of this difference – having something to be teased about.
Nowadays it’s not always noticeable, just released under pressure
Seriousness so quickly transformed into mocking,
Knocking down of the small confidence of someone once so small
Growing up, practicing self-control and self-awareness
But always aware of a weakness, available for teasing.
Attendance to countless sessions to suppress a lisp,
It’s amazing how much it shows up in a sentence.
Self-conscious of an unconscious way of speaking
Thus practicing writing, and falling in love with a silent art.