When the sun shined,
I would move my body under the water
Placing my wrinkled palm along the surface
Just so I could feel that gentle
I felt weightless along with the world
Just another cloud in the earth’s sky.
I imagined this was what heaven felt like
And we are just fallen angels.
Now, no longer weightless
I feel everything
Pressing me back down into the dirt every time
I’m landlocked and drowning on air
As the angry sky tells me there is no heaven.
Tears taste just like the sea
But this shallow pool can only fit an ego.
Desperately, I try to create a new ocean
I move my body, running and diving
Just to remember what my heartbeat feels like.
I place my dry palm on my skin
Just to feel,
Then raising my face to an empty sky,
I wait for the sun to shine again.